My Current Anthem, which has replaced Robyn's "Dancing On My Own"

So........





my current life anthem is "Video Killed the Radio Star"

Mostly due to my unhealthy obsession with the movie, "Take This Waltz" starring Michelle Williams, Seth Rogan, and the SMOLDERING Luke Kirby. if you haven't seen it SEE IT ASAP.

But also the lyrics really resonate w/ me right now.

It's not JUST about the transfer of Radio to Video, but it's also a song about changing. How it feels to be in the process of change - it's scary and nostalgic and unpredictable and a rush of blood to the head. it is good and bad and thrilling all at the same time. You're trying to hold on to the past, while embracing the future and that's difficult to do, if not impossible.

I heard you on the wireless back in '52
Lying awake intently tuning in on you
If I was young it didn't stop you coming through
[Oh-a-oh]

They took the credit for your second symphony
Rewritten by machine on new technology
And now I understand the problems you can see

[Oh-a-oh]
I met your children
[Oh-a-oh]
What did you tell them?

[Video killed the radio starVideo killed the radio star]
Pictures came and broke your heart
[Oh-a-a-a oh]

And now we meet in an abandoned studio
We hear the playback and it seems so long ago
And you remember the jingles used to go:

[Oh-a-oh]
You were the first one
[Oh-a-oh]
You were the last one


In my mind and in my car
We can't rewind, we've gone too far
[Oh-a-a-a ohOh-a-a-a oh]

[Video killed the radio starVideo killed the radio star]
In my mind and in my car
We can't rewind, we've gone too far
Pictures came and broke your heart
Put the blame on VTR...


You are the radio star
[Video killed the radio starVideo killed the radio star]
You are the radio star
[Video killed the radio starVideo killed the radio star]
You are the radio star
[Video killed the radio starVideo killed the radio star]
You are the radio star

[Oh-a-oh, oh-a-oh...]

I have landed in D.C.

I've made it to D.C.

It's the beginning of a new chapter. I'm still being nostalgic though, thinking of all the things that happened in Austin. And all I can do is smile.

I think I'll actually try to be a grown up in this new chapter. Not all the time, but most the time. In Austin I was never a grown up. But having a Tagine and Herb Garden and Queen Sized bed are all grown-up things I'd like to explore. and a 401k and stuff. And here are pictures of sexy lady grownups. and a tagine and a herb garden and queen sized bed. :)

50 shades of .......

hotel bar. i walk in with a black dress on and heels. I want to order a martini because that will mean i am sophisticated, but instead i order a margarita. I am in Texas after all.

we meet eyes across the room. he comes over. i introduce myself as Lola. Because whatever Lola wants Lola gets. We talk about everything we can't say too loudly. Then i order champagne. 

We kiss on our way up in the elevator. You can't control yourself. We get into the room. You close the curtains. I plug in the music. You turn on the low lights.

You unzip my little black dress from the back, kissing me on the back of my neck as you go down. I help you unbutton your lilac checkered shirt. The one that hugs you, make you look devilishly handsome.

Then we proceed to have everything we wanted for so long.





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DIG A PONY.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKhH2xKy60c

ALL I WANT IS YOU. EVERYTHING HAS GOT TO BE JUST LIKE YOU WANT IT TO. BECAUSE .....

dreams and last days

prose excerpt: " i have to say, i find you irresistible and that's why I'm risking so much.what do want? i've never done this before." In my hammock swinging, fireflies gathered 'round. Pizza. Gelato. James Bond sex scenes. The one with the shark pit. Don't get thrown in. Too late.

This weekend was a Dottie West tale.

And Van Morrison is still present for all my major life moments. His music makes me nostalgic for things that haven't happened to me yet. 

"We were born before the wind

Also younger than the sun

Smell the sea and feel the sky
Let your soul and spirit fly into the mystic

I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
And together we will float into the mystic"

the song is you.

i had a Jim & Pam from The Office sort of evening.

me and my work crush (WC) confessed our mutual crushes for each other in the park. this is a year long story....

it was pretty much the most romantic thing i've done in awhile.


 

we talked about all the times during the past year we wanted to tell each other but couldn't. we talked about all the times we had company parties and i would look across the room for him and he would already be staring.  and then we'd smile and that was it.

i'm glad it happened before i left.

and now i feel all romantical.................


"Down deep in my heart, I hear it say,
Is this the day?

I alone have heard this lovely strain,
I alone have heard this glad refrain:
Must it be forever inside of me,
Why can't I let it go,
Why can't I let you know,
Why can't I let you know the song
My heart would sing?

That beautiful rhapsody
Of love and youth and spring,
The music is sweet,
The words are true -
The song is you."

prospects

even though i've sworn off men,
i'm going to pursue the following in DC:

• brooding photo journalists
• brooding journalists
• foreign anything. preferably: latin, spanish, irish, scottish, must speak in the accent of "hot"
• political zealot (non-right wing)
• congressman
• senator (married would be more scandalous)
• investment banker

I will update you on my progress.....