breakthrough.

For the first time in a LONG time, i felt whole. I felt that everything I needed, I had. I wasn't wanting anything, I wasn't missing anything; I felt truly complete. It happened at yoga last night and it was a personal highlight for me this year.  I was in the half moon pose!!!

i have been getting signs lately. and it's getting me really excited. I can hear my intuition clearly now and I'm confident it's leading somewhere magical. for awhile there, I couldn't hear it at all and didn't know what to do. I was feeling shame, guilt, and apologizing for no reason.

my future goals are more visible now, but i am also trying to live in the present. it's a balancing act that only gets better with practice. that's what I've learned these past few months.

ALSO can i just say, "The Four Agreements" has been an amazing read these past few months. It may seem at first like hippe bullshit, but it is a book which has reminded me about things that are key to have in finding personal acceptance, contentment, confidence. 

give hugs.

i saw the white whale in the grocery store on the 17th. i heard my name being called from across the crowded aisle. and somehow i was transformed into a holy deity. I had a graceful conversation and even GAVE A HUG to the white whale.  For some reason I felt a great compassion in that moment.  I realized I had moved on and forgiven him and he still felt bad for hurting me.

Sometimes the right thing to do is just be nice to those who need it more than you, rather than bitter.i realized the white whale needed a hug of forgiveness more than a punch in the face of bitterness.