on writing

i think like running, the hardest thing about writing is getting started. once i start i can't stop. but starting after a long work day is challenging. but i suppose only the strong survive. I'm going to try to be more disciplined this coming month. it's still inconsistent.

Toni Morrison was an editor at Random House, reading manuscripts all day, and a single mother, and she STILL WROTE A FUCKING BOOK.

there are no more excuses.

what are you willing to give up to have what you really want?

i love Elizabeth Gilbert

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HXwcgHSN-5c

i am obsessed with Elizabeth Gilbert. I love how down-to-earth she is with her insight and advice.

the windows open

i want to date an emotionally available Ernest Hemingway.

i realize this is a contradictory statement.

First, suffering drags you deeper into yourself.

Instead of recoiling from the sorts of loving commitments that almost always involve suffering, they throw themselves more deeply into them. Even while experiencing the worst and most lacerating consequences, some people double down on vulnerability. They hurl themselves deeper and gratefully into their art, loved ones and commitments.


http://www.nytimes.com/2014/04/08/opinion/brooks-what-suffering-does.html?partner=rssnyt&emc=rss&_r=1

 a well written perspective on the experience of suffering.

bow down.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-KbV8h8FGpc

eight minutes in.

HELLZ YEAH.

breakthrough.

For the first time in a LONG time, i felt whole. I felt that everything I needed, I had. I wasn't wanting anything, I wasn't missing anything; I felt truly complete. It happened at yoga last night and it was a personal highlight for me this year.  I was in the half moon pose!!!

i have been getting signs lately. and it's getting me really excited. I can hear my intuition clearly now and I'm confident it's leading somewhere magical. for awhile there, I couldn't hear it at all and didn't know what to do. I was feeling shame, guilt, and apologizing for no reason.

my future goals are more visible now, but i am also trying to live in the present. it's a balancing act that only gets better with practice. that's what I've learned these past few months.

ALSO can i just say, "The Four Agreements" has been an amazing read these past few months. It may seem at first like hippe bullshit, but it is a book which has reminded me about things that are key to have in finding personal acceptance, contentment, confidence. 

HELLZ YEAH.