My love's too big for you my love

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Baby you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart
And baby you've got the sort of face to start this old heart
But your eyes are warning me this early morning
That my love's too big for you my love

Baby you've got the sort of laugh that waters me
And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me
I find you stunning, but you are running me down
My love's too big for you my love
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Baby you've got the sort of eyes that tell me tales
That your sort of mouth just will not say, the truth impales
That you don't need me, but you won't leave me
My love's too big for you my love
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Tell me what to do to take away the you?

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no.
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

15 Powerful Things Happy People Do Differently

This article reminds me of what is TRULY important to remember and practice in daily character. It's good to evaluate yourself once in awhile and see if you are living up to the impression you've painted in your brain for yourself or not. Similar to listening to your recorded voice.  I always think I sound nice, until i hear myself talk.  I sound like a valley girl at time and it's so embarrassing!  I seem to over-enunciation every word. *Oy vey*

Celebrating ...

Friday night, my friend greeted me poolside with a bottle of white wine. I provided the glasses.  We cheered to my job and me being able to stay in the fair city of Austin for one more year of bliss.

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The IMoM took me out for ice cream and then a movie.  Breakfast was English as always - porridge, marmite on muffins and tea. And lovely conversation.


I am grateful for my wonderful friends, family, crushes, pool, margaritas, and this new job.  I love where i live, and can't believe i get another year here. It's a wonderful life. You'll have to excuse my happiness.


Also - now that my Master's will be done i can get hobbies back in my life.  I'm thinking of learning a new language - that I could actually utilize. I love Italian, but maybe Spanish could be more useful in life?

Also - my poetry will be back on the market. ASAP.

If Things Are Working The Way You Want Them To - CELEBRATE!

Thursday I was interviewed, and Friday, I got my first JOB. 

I'll be processing a famous photographer's collection at a world renown cultural institution located in Austin.  And no, the former sentence is actual real, i'm not bullshitting!!!

To keep some anonymity, I don't wanna give too many details on this blog.  But you will be hearing from me in the coming months on how the project is going on my professional blog.  

I get a daily newsletter in my inbox called, "The Daily Love".  It has a different theme everyday, inspirational quotes and links to motivational blogs.  Compared to a lot of the trash i get in my inbox, it's nice to see positive, spirit-lifting thoughts on a daily basis. 

I received this one in my inbox today, the subject line reading: If Things Are Working The Way You Want Them To - CELEBRATE!

The theme in a lot of my mentoring calls and incoming emails this week has been about frustration coming from things not happening as quickly as folks want them to or the way folks want them to. 

Here's the thing: we are on a spiritual path, connecting with the SOURCE OF ALL LIFE, and we think we should be telling IT how and when to make things happen in our lives. 

In this age of tweeting, texting, instagramming, facebooking, googling, pinning, pining, longing and emailing, we've gotten lost in the outer technology. We've forgotten our inner technology. We've somehow begun to think that The Uni-verse should be working on OUR SCHEDULE, instead of taking the humble Path and allowing the Wisdom of the Ages that fuels the Sun, beats your heart and breathes life into you in every moment, the chance to chime in.

Spiritual growth doesn't happen on your schedule. That's WHY it's spiritual growth. It's not about The Uni-verse giving you what you want; it's about The Uni-verse training you to be who you really are, tapped into Source, being a vessel of Grace and knowing the only thing you really need is the connection to your Source, and all physical manifestations that are in your best interest will follow. 

Sometimes, all the things you have put your faith in will be taken away, not as punishment, but as a way of teaching you that trusting The Uni-verse is all you really need to do. And then you think you have many problems, but the only real problem you have is that you are disconnected from your Source. 

It's like the drop of water that wants to surf a huge wave - it has to connect back with the ocean in order to do big things. It can try and try on its own, and it won't be able to move a damn thing. But when it's connected to its Source, it can be a TIDAL WAVE and it's PUSHED, instead of needing to PUSH.

So if things are happening how and when you want them to - CELEBRATE. The Master's Hand is at work trying to show you a better way. Even if your mind doesn't think so right away, there is a better way coming towards you. Stay open, stay available, stay in humble patience that the answer will be revealed and most likely in a way that you haven't yet considered.

Live the mystery of life with gratitude instead of an entitled attitude. This is the Path of Grace. The Uni-verse will bring us to our knees, not as punishment, but to show us a better way.

A delay is not a denial - remember that and live the mystery!

Love,

Mastin

Isn't it odd, when something you see or read, completely relates to the present moment you are in? 

Everything is going really awesome right now in my life and i have to relish in this accomplishment until the next moment.  


Remembering to reflect and feel the gifts the universe gives you is a valuable thing to learn in this life.  Even if other things (work, school, bills) seem mediocre, being grateful for the basic things in your life (shelter, food, family, friends) is something to remain steadfast in.  What a trip it is, and how lucky we all are to be living the gift of life!!!

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A little Girl Power for your day.

Sing it, Sistah.

Blissful ignorance

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At the close of this semester - my last one in grad school - i'm being all emo and introspective. So of course i wanted to write about it, in chalk on the sidewalk that is my section of the Internet.  Here are some beautiful things I'd like to do ... asap.

1. Take a trip to Brazil
2. Write - and actually get published
3. Sing in a band - i already do this, but would like to continue until i reach senility - and beyond.  You can have dementia and still remember lyrics. 
4. Live in a city and be a workaholic
5. Work for a non-profit .... again
6. Rent a Tuscan villa for two weeks in the summer w/ friends
7. Go to Africa, preferably while doing work, or serving some cause in some manner
8. Live in a Foreign country. 
9. Have an urban bee colony in my backyard 
10. Remain a Free Bitch as long as possible

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The future is so fickle. I've been to psychics, I've had my astrology read. I've plotted and guessed.  Yet - the only way anything I've imagined has come true is through action.  So many of my dreams have been realized this way: living in italy, moving to Texas for grad school, working at the Smithsonian. I hope I can keep this magic going. I think I can.  Mostly because I am full of BLISSFUL IGNORANCE. it's a flame i've been fiercely protecting since i was born -  and continue to do so.

Also - I feel that as long as my mother or friends are telling me my ideas are crazy/ridiculous/"don't DO that!" I am moving in the right direction.  Because no one boring or practical every had an exciting, crazy life. And that is what i want.

Still applying for jobs, still trying to decide if I'm staying in Austin or getting the hell outta town ....
only time will tell.

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Presenting Lily Mars

the IMoM and tea

I managed to drag the IMoM to a concert on Friday nite, after we each had two skinny 'ritas. a small miracle.  He made me tea and "porridge" for breakfast. I like his voice and word choices.  I swear I could listen to him read the newspaper.

but that is between you and me, internet.

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I'm seeing one of my favorite bands tonight.

Here is a fave song by them, Mona & Emmy.

Check more of their music out here.  Their music makes me nostalgic, weepy, joyous all at the same time.

2012 Pulitzer prizes for Photography

This year's winners photography really moved me.  One captures a young girl crying out right after a suicide bomb has gone off, killing and injuring many of her friends around her.

A second selection is apart of a series of photos taken by Craig F. Walker.   The photo story is about an honorably discharged veteran, home from Iraq and struggling with a severe case of post-traumatic stress.

I think these photos are important.  They remind us that our country is STILL at WAR; despite us being completely desensitized to it.  Unlike WWII, the Iraq and Afghan wars have been nothing more than a news headline to civilians. There are no rations or Victory gardens.  It's something we know about, yet continue to ignore.  Unless you are serving in the military or are a relative of someone that does, sacrifice is a rarity for this War. 

How must it feel to come back after serving in this war?  How can you relate to other civilians who know nothing about what you've gone through or don't even seem to care about what is going on "over there"?

True Story:

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To the young at heart - never forget:

Coachella: Where Cultural Respect goes to die and Anorexia is Queen. Proof young women need role models.

I've never been to Coachella.  It's a two weekend music Fest in California.  Many "commoners" go, but also, young starlets go.  You know, the ones who are "cool" enough to get VIP passes.

The pictures coming out of this year's event are disturbing.  I've been seeing multiple young woman with paint on their faces akin to tribal marks and many wearing huge, elaborate Native American head dresses.  Call me crazy, but does this not have an air of cultural insensitivity and ignorance to it?  Even more ignorant since I have seen barely ANY pictures with people of color. Coachella seems extremely WASP-y and entitled.

Also - many of these same young women look emaciated, weak and dying.  They seem to exalt their unnatural thin frames.  Is this empowerment? 

When did "being a hippie/flower child" mean demeaning other people's cultural heritage and starving yourself? Why and how have the women of my generation become so ignorant and self-loathing? Where are the empowering figures they can look up to?

To Tallulah Willis' credit, she does talk about how it IS WRONG that a current trend for Coachella is to "do these crazy diets and not eat a month before Coachella" (at 3:57).  She talks about her own body issues at 2:57.

But DON'T WORRY. if you're not RICH, WHITE, or COOL you can create your own disrespectful stance at home. Through Couchella. 


Without strong women role models, young women suffer.  When women suffer, the whole household (both "traditional" or "unconventional" dynamics) suffers.  This leads to more suffering in the world.

We need to cultivate stronger women not only for ourselves, but society as a whole. Hopefully this is proof we are moving in a weird, retrogressive path.